August through December

Okay so its been awhile since I have actually written a new blog. well not really i wrote a blog but its was so nasty and mean...the real me hehehe that i decided to take it down. Well let me take you back a couple months to August. So as you know I started off the year teaching 2nd grade. I liked it...my kids were awesome....you see how im using the past tense right. Day 10 fucking bullshit...dun dun dun my unit gets cut. i knew that shit was going to happen so I kinda conceded that maybe i would be leaving Fairmount Park. ohhhhhh no Karen GD Moseley calls me into her office. so at first as i thought i was in trouble. but then i was thinking i havnt been at school to offend any parents...yet...lol. so she called me in the office and told me my unit got cut...i was okay with that but then the fucking hammer....we are gaining a kindergarten unit...not wait a minute....rewind back up what the hell did she just say. Did she just say kindergarten??? so as she's still talking im still trying to process what she said. So anyway to make a long story short i teach kindergarten. do i hate it...depends on the day...would i teach it again. yeah but i got conditions...not really ready to go into details abou that but those of you who know me what they are or could possibly be.

As for my love life....i do have a certain someone in my life...well a couple of course i have to slut it up just a bit..but i do have one in particular that im leaning more towards. he shall be coming to visit me in the new year. we shall see if it works...so yes when i say hook me up im joking. also im a natural flirt people, its what i do, i mean nothing by it well maybe at the time, but seriously i dont. here is something that you will learn about me that you never knew about me. i dont flirt with a guy i might like...atleast not intentionally. but back to the mystery guy...no i will not reveal his name or anything specific. if it works out then he will make an appearance. :)

Thanksgiving was good...i flew home and it was damn cold. like 12 degrees. needless to say i stayed in the house most of the time. my mom was sick so i did the grocery shopping...oh boy. i was on the phone a lot. but i did it. i also made the macaroni and cheese it was a hit. i saw my nephews and niece..baby girl. she is going to be my shopping buddy. this was the first year that i didnt go out for black friday. didnt help that i didnt have any money, but there was really nothing that i wanted. plus as i get older im starting to notice that shopping for others gives me much anxiety. i will explain that in the next paragraph

December was a quick month thank the lord. in my infinite wisdom i decided to teach my kiddos that there was more than one holiday in december so we talked about kwanzaa and hannukah and christmas. the best part of the whole month was the last day. i found this letter from santa and gave each one of my kiddos a personalized letter from Santa. When i was passing them out one kid screamed out SANTA IS REAL!!! that was nice...they are still little and believers. also i got a little christmas gift. i was in line at dunkin donuts and i let this lady get in front of me. when it was my time to pay the lady i had let in had already paid for my meal...that kinda stuff only happens in the movies...but now i can say it happened to me. Being nice does pay off..lol. myself, l. ruscetta, blanco and blancos sister went to Ellenton to do some holiday shopping that was fun. we spent all day there, and i do mean alllllllll day, but it was fun and can't wait to do it again. however i must say the group that went was a good group. no judging, i really dont need anyone criticizing my purchases, and if i want to buy something that i may not really need then i dont need someone bad mouthing it....its my dam money i will spend it however i see fit...i dont say anything about the stupid stuff you buy. oooops sorry about that started getting angry. i flew home on the 22nd and it was dam cold again. i finished my christmas shopping and did a lot of sleeping. actually i was sleep before i started writing this and im going back to sleep when i finish...lol.
Christmas was nice it was at my brothers house. i am mad that i left my watch at his house...my brand new fossil watch that i just bought...grrrrr. the kids had fun and i got...drumroll please....rockband...woo hoo. i kick ass on the guitar and singing...gotta work on my drumming. i also got some giftcards. cant wait to play...maybe on new years.
well that is all for now...stay tuned for New YEARS...lol

What's Going On!!!!

Well I am not going to Atlanta as of right now. I will be staying in Florida for another year. At first I was sad and hurt, because I thought that's where I was supposed to be, but the Lord has other plans for me. Another thing that has happened is now I'm going to be teaching 2nd grade. At first I was like WTF!!!! but after that second passed I was like whatever. By going to 2nd grade i dont have the pressure of teaching for a test. I have a whole year to get these kids ready for 3rd grade. Sometimes I think they say things because they want to get a riled up, and acting crazy, but a motto that i have learned to live by this year. Is that getting angry wont change the situation, in most cases. If I get upset and cry or start throwing things will i get my grade back??? Probably not, and then they will label me as crazy or extra sensitive. Dont need that Im going to focus on doing a good job in 2nd grade and then making a change. Im hoping my change will come as in moving to Atlanta. I took the information well, but i think the other changes that are about to come down the pipeline are going to be UGLY!!! Oh well im going to do the best i can so i can get a good reference so i can get up out of florida. At any rate found an apartment so i plan to move in by the end of june, and then spend july at home 3 weeks maybe. hmm many things...oh yeah i had a moment of zen and i have decided that I am going to say something to my school crush. To get you updated last year i was given some information about my school crush, he likes me, went to a certain event to see me blah blah blah. i find all this out the last day of school...so i act on that information and send him a letter telling him about how i to liked him, and gave him contact information blah blah blah...he never acted on it. Start of this school year still dont hear anything. So in the letter i said if i dont hear from you then maybe you aren't interested or whatever. But the curiosity in me has to know...what the duece. Did you get the letter? Did you read it? Why didnt you respond? Was i given bad information? What I have to know. My punkass meter is screaming at me for not finding this out sooner, so i cant go another minute not knowing. So on tuesday im just going to go for gold...the worst he can do is look at me crazy and then run away...lol...but i must know. I hope i dont chicken out. I get so nervous when it comes to guys and speaking for myself so hopefully i can do this. will keep you updated
Later Days

Desire of my heart

As the end of the year approaches I am trying to make some major decisions. The desires of my heart want a career change. I have put forth a major effort to accomplish this desire. i have applied , I have interviewed, and now i wait. I continue to pray for favor. I claim that the job is mine and that i will be relocating to a new location. Another desire of my heart is to be able to purchase a new car. Not necessarily new new, but new to me is sufficient. I would feel more comfortable fulfilling this desire when my first desire is fulfilled.

Excuse the randomness that is coming in 3....2...1

Okay being patient has been one of the hardest things i have had to endure. I know that sounds strange im 26, this can't possibly be the first time i have had to wait for something to happen. Im going crazy...i just wish i knew one way or the other. I really want this job, I want a chance to not be under the shadow of someone else. I want the opportunity for people to think or just know that i can do this job on my own. I know im a competent person but I really desire a fresh start. Unfortunately i want my fresh start to be closer to home. I do miss being home. I hate not knowing that i cant celebrate holidays with my family because of distance and cost. This move would assist both of these problems. I pray everyday and Im not going to stop. Not only do i know my prayers are being heard but i know that I can talk and no one will cut me off with their issues or advice. My answer will come in due time. I know that whatever decision comes, its because that's where im supposed to be.